In Beli’s main chapter of Junot Diaz’s novel The Brief and Wondrous Life of Oscar Wao,
readers witness a unique “heart-to-heart” moment between Beli and the Gangster.
After Beli asks him if he ever misses having a family, the Gangster replies:
“All those people have
families, you can tell by their faces, they have families that depend on them
and that they depend on, and for some of them this is good, and for some of
them this is bad. But it all amounts to the same shit because there isn’t one
of them who is free. They can’t do what they want to do or be who they should
be. I might have no one in the world, but at least I’m free.” (133-134)
On the surface, Beli accepts this speech. She later tells
him she wants to be like him and be free too. But what makes this conversation
so interesting is that Beli clearly does not consider the implications of this
belief system because if she had considered them she would see the futility of
her visions of marriage and children.
Beli doesn’t seem to notice that the freedom that the
Gangster claims to own does not match the situation he outwardly appears to be
living in, and definitely doesn’t match the future Beli envisions. He says he
is free from dependents and people to depend on, that he has “no one in the
world,” even though he has a wife, a mistress, and a dictator to please. He does
have people in his life, but in order to maintain his freedom, to be who he “should
be,” he has distanced himself from them. This freedom that he claims shows how
little emotionally invested he is in the lives and futures of those he claims
to care about.
Beli either does not understand or romanticizes this confession
of distance, and is blinded to its ramifications for her future. Her excitement
about her pregnancy and her belief that the Gangster would be equally excited
show how she did not comprehend what the Gangster was saying (even though he basically promises her here they will never have a family) and as such she did not
fully adopt his definition of freedom, at least not right away. An argument
could be made that Beli’s parenting style might be based on this foundation:
the belief that freedom and family are opposing forces.
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